Tails of a 17th Street Geisha

I just realized something. I put up with a LOT of bull shit. A TON OF BULL SHIT.

Right now I realize that I excuse a lot of disrespect towards me. I have been in an abusive friendship with someone who I mentor, support professionally, and allowed to live in my apartment for 5 months rent-free to help her while she job searched in DC.

I know I may come across like a loud-mouth, hard-headed, stubborn, know-it-all, who doesn’t put up with shit and calls people out. But seriously… Sometimes, I allow people who are close to me to walk all over me!

I am so SO mad at this one person. She is condescending, disrespectful, and abusive as a friend.

I have made every excuse in the book for her behavior. "Oh, she’s insecure" or " she’s competing with me" or "she’s strange and nobody’s perfect" or "she’s different and that’s why I like her…"

enough of this shit! She has reached my threshold for abuse which is high, given what I had to go through to work at a certain feminist organization for five years.

I’m SUCH a bleeding heart liberal. I allow relativism to make a doormat of me. I excuse bad behavior and take the high road. I never stick up for myself.

I would rather be ALONE than have this kind of friendship.  She makes fun of me, of how I dress, who I date, how I interact with people. She is condescending and constantly giving me unsolicited advice on EVERYTHING. She tells me that she tunes me out for the most part when I’m talking to her.

I haven’t spoken to her for a week and I am better off for it.

Grrrrrrr!

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