dating…
So I went out on two dates this week. It was fun and a little adventurous. The first guy was a little bit of a pervert but I think I might have egged him on. The second guy reminded me of my old ex Dallas (for better or worse). I have some GREAT stories about both dates, but goddammit if my carpel tunnel will let me tell in on this blog.
Oh, so I also realize that I no longer have gay male friends. None of my old gay friends so much as text me anymore. Aris is great and I hang out with him, but I’m wondering where all my friends go and why my pack of friends are always changing.
Why am I constantly changing my friendship circle? Why do I not have any friends for life? Sometimes I feel so alone in the fact that I don’t have a steady circle. My goddamn dog has been the only consistent source of fun and friendship.
I also wish I ran in a different circle. Since I’ve been abandoned by all my fags (maybe I’ve just abandoned the gay clubs) I really have an opportunity to run with a different pack. I REALLY really REALLY wish I could run with some edm fans. There are a LOT, a TON of djs coming to DC now and I have no one reliable to go with. Drell is so flaky, I have a better chance predicting sunshine in Seattle than I do knowing when I’m going to hang out with him next.
I missed Paul Van Dyk because there was no one to go with. My date of last night was really sweet and offered to accompany me, but when he said he did not like loud music, I decided not to torture him.
Am I really going to go to Carl Cox alone tonight? I’m SUCH a loser.
*PS* I found some SUPER HOT Fornarina shoes in DC. AT MARSHALL’S!!! For 30 bucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was so excited I nearly screamed. they’re grey platform knee length boots and they’re good for my halloween costume and good for clubbing. SO HAPPY!
October 26th, 2007 at 2:41 pm
Ahem. Not gay, but definitely your friend. Looking forward to the next time you’re in SF!
October 30th, 2007 at 5:11 am
i feel the same way… seems like relationships are not stable anymore.. it’s not about u, it’s about all of us.. it’s hard but it’s reality.. i only wish it never pains me when people suddenly disappear and find the companionship of others better than mine
October 31st, 2007 at 10:28 am
i freakin feel the same freakin way as u do my friends aren’t here there back home and ihave none to be with or hang out with it freakin stinks with any friends well i do have sum friends where i now live but i dont feel like going out because im scared
November 30th, 2007 at 8:17 am
Whatever, let’s just have fun and not over analyze things.
Friends come and go. For what it’s worth, having different sets of friends mean you can be different without changing, you know what I mean?
Man…you look so familiar like what. LIke Joan Cusak or something. Wonder if Dallas ever just stopped and looked at you for a day. With that face, staring for a day is better than you know what mean. LOL
Enjoy and keep warm