comfortably numb
So I’m alone. Drea and Carmelita and Brian are gone. I had a whirlwind of every kind of interaction last weekend: family with Drea, friends who came out to see her off, romance/action with Brian… and then nothing. Poof! Work resumed, working out resumed, hanging with friends resumed, but something’s different. I still feel as though I have Drea with me. I’m unable to branch out. I know I can stay up late and party, but I would rather not. I know I could sleep in, but I can’t. I know I could work out for hours on end, but the most I can squeeze out is 2 hours one night, all the other times I’m only there for an hour or so.
Perhaps I’ve run myself ragged with activity these last couple of months and I’m over-due for a break. Every muscle is sore, every brain neuron burnt, any opportunity for fun fleeting.
There is something I failed to mention. I packed and moved everything out of my place on Friday night and all day Saturday. I’m also coming down with something.
Every time I work on something with all diligence and effort, focusing on a major campaign or timeline, really pushing myself to my phsyical and mental limits… every time I go to extremes in my life I always crash and burn. I get sick! My body is shutting down now.
I’ve spent a lot of my free time with Wendy, if not all of it these days and it’s been a great, relaxing time. I feel that I need to flex my newfound, re-born, urban/city-dwelling/life styel. I haven’t picked up a Wash City Paper in ages, haven’t even looked up good events in the area… and I don’t feel like it!
I am going to stay indoors until I meet up with co-workers Andrew and Diane and others to watch Bobby at the Uptown later today…
Now for a nap! (I know–the life I lead)
*ps* I am SOOO randy now. If I can say that I’m apparently numb and apathetic to most things in life, I must asy that there’s a certain part of me that is fully awake–awake like a fully caffeinated Brain (reverse the vowels and you will see the source of my randiness.)
December 11th, 2006 at 5:44 am
its like u are a free bird now.
may be u need pure indulgence.
Imran
December 11th, 2006 at 5:51 am
add me
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December 11th, 2006 at 9:50 am
<< a free bird now???? were she’ll gonna fly? i think u need just a rest,u r exusted.
December 11th, 2006 at 1:48 pm
So, maybe this is a sign that you _shouldn’t_ be running yourself to extremes all the time– i.e. maybe an hour at the gym per day is enough already!
December 11th, 2006 at 8:03 pm
i like to bee friend
December 12th, 2006 at 1:47 am
you’ll get use to it love. i wish i could give you a hug.