fessing up
Okay. I know that last blog was very melodramatic. I’m fessing up. Although this weekend wasn’t as fun as I was expecting, my real anxiety or sadness or drama or whatever stems from being emotionally involved with someone who is ostensibly ignoring me! I hate the feeling that I like someone way more than they like me. I just hate it. And when a person draws me in, and I’m totally into them, then it really hurts to feel like they just couldn’t care less about you.
Am I going berserk over not hearing from Chris the entire weekend? It’s strange behaviour to say the least that we chat all day long, text and IM or whatever and then absolute silence. And I know when I called both days that he completely ignored my calls. And I know that he had memorized my cell phone number at this point and has a land line, so if someone stole his cell phone, he could have easily called me over the landline.
And what’s really eating away at me, isn’t that he hasn’t called me back and that he might not like me, but that something could have happened to him over the weekend. He was in the ER with some accidental drug mishap last weekend.
I’m obsessing for no good reason. I just hate how much I realize I must like him to be fretting so much! I haven’t liked a guy like this since Bryan of last fall. Bryan was such an emotional mind-fuck. Perhaps I should stay away from Chris and get someone really boring, reliable and stable. OR stop looking poor nub in all the wrong places, looking poor nub. I mean, both boys were from match.com
July 10th, 2006 at 7:46 am
As Tom Petty says, “The waiting is the hardest part!”…you don’t know what he had going on over the weekend. But I think if he doesn’t call you today or tomorrow you have a right to find out what’s going on! Or maybe he likes you a lot too and is getting a little nervous about that so he’s slowing it down a bit. Those are my thoughts. But you know how to keep yourself busy to keep your mind from running all over the place!
July 10th, 2006 at 8:04 am
Hi Anita! Long time no speak, so to speak. Anyway, he texted me this morning to say that he wasn’t checking messages all weekend and was stressed because of a job interview he had to prepare for on Tuesday. I knew that he had this thing on Tuesday, but come on, you can respond to ONE of my texts to let me know you’re alive!!! I hate men! heheheh I hate the way I get around them!
July 10th, 2006 at 5:22 pm
ok so he has an interview on Tusday and he is stressing about it on friday, saturday and sundy?? COME ON who is he kidding? as a bullshiter my self I am afraid I have to tell you that I think ,and this is only my professional opinion my dear cyber friend, the brother is bullshiting you. There is a treachury a foot. I hope I am wrong though for your sake… and I have been wrong before.
July 11th, 2006 at 4:10 am
If I am interested in a guy but doesn’t want a commitment, I lay my cards on the table. The trouble is none of these guys wanna end up being in my f*ck buddies’ list. I think that’s the main reason why they keep coming back..they can’t get enough of my sh?t! Hehehehehe!
You got something IN you that draws men closer. But the minute they get to see you behind the “disco ball” and run off with their tails in between their balls…. it’s crystal clear girl. They’re only after the Debbie… who?!
And abt this latest squeeze you been “raving abt”… you deserve more credit than what he could muster (it took him days to come up with a lame excuse huh).. Kill Bill!
Relax, you’re only 27. We’re kind of on the same page. So to speak.
July 11th, 2006 at 7:47 am
Lee.. I’m 29 years old!!!! AAARGH. I’m one foot in the grave of my 20s. I’m actually more than one foot in the grave of my 20’s youth… I love what you say “see you behind the ‘disco ball’…” that’s hilarious. yo girl. seriously, I’m on no rush and I’m really confused as to what I want, not just the kind of guy but if I’m ready or have time for a real relationship. I dunno. It’s been sooo long! heheheh my idea of a long-term relationship was barely 3months… HA! thanks for your advice and hilarious perspective :))))
July 11th, 2006 at 9:31 am
Awww..geez! Sorry girl, I didnt mean to add more injury to your heel :p I am 27 y/o and everytime my work mates would tease me abt starting my own family soon… My classic response would always be like, ” If I get too fed up with my life, I’d prolly heed your unsolicited advice..”
I am having a hard time finding the right fit as well, but hey I don’t mind tripping!