Tails of a 17th Street Geisha

I’m at Wendy’s house. I’m hanging out with her a lot. Her gay bf Andrew (not cupcake) the little one, is sitting next to me, staring at my boobs. I think he’s secretly straight, not really. I went shopping, went  to the pool, and did all that fun shit I blogged about yesterday. I’m going to fly a kite (wink) and go to Chris Trott’s b-day party. I changed my evite to plus 10 because all the people I’m bringing to the party, technically, were not invited. Andrews (cupcake and lil’ one), Dan (cupcake’s bf), Wendy and possibly Chris (ex bf) and friend Meghan. I wonder if Chris Trott (aka Spinach) will hate me. I have a nice present for him at least. I have spent 10 minutes in my house awake in the last 48 hours. No wonder I’m always sick!

Work is going to be crazy busy. I have to plan a trip to Tex-ass (sister and mom), Cali-fornication (sister, sister, brother), and Phoenix, Hairy-zona (Brother) in the next 4 months. OH YEAH–and I’m supposed to be training for a half marathon (Disneyland Sep 20!!!!)

Yoga is aggravating my running/DDR injuries. I haven’t run in a month. I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks (but I’ve been swimming like a maniac!) Hmmm… what else? I lost some weight from being sick (yay!)

Oh yeah, so I’m dating this other guy (not exclusively) now who I met on friendster… and I’m hanging out with Nate tomorrow (a guy I used to date, but am keeping at friends because he’s SUPER cool)

Wendy is giving me shit for being on the computer during her dinner party!!! gotta jet folks. life is good in the hood!!!

I saw Chris yesterday afternoon. It was perfect timing. I work in Silver Spring and was wrapping up to leave and Chris was coming into Takoma Park (2 seconds away from my work) to go to Kung Fu. He stopped by my office and we hung out for 15 minutes. When I look at him, I see someone who I would rather know as a friend than as a boyfriend. He’s not ready and perhaps neither am I. Too bad we can’t be friends with benefits (well, that gets complicated and difficult to sustain anyway.) Anyways, am I beating a dead horse on this topic?

So I got into work SUPER early this morning so I can finish up work and leave early. This weekend is going to be action packed. Parties on Friday and Saturday night. Clubbing on Friday and Saturday night–Sat will be fun because there’s a turntables competition @ Five. Saturday morning will be SUPER fun as I’ll go shopping with Wendy and the sun @ the pool. Sunday I may go for a walk or chill with Nate (remember him? did I ever blog about him? hmmmm…) and if I don’t chill with Nate I’ll go to Baltimore with Paul. FUN FUN! Love the weekends!

FUCK! I just blogged about how Chris and I broke up last night and because of a pop-up blocker, I lost ALL OF IT.

Let’s just say that we broke up. I’m seeing him tonight to talk about if and how we can be friends.

We progressed physically to a point where we were very close, but not personally. We still had a lot of getting to know eachother. That weirded me out because we were treating it like a serious relationship, but were still not fully connected personally. I don’t just call anyone a boyfriend, but I did want to try it with him. We could have been exclusively dating, not boyfriend/girlfriend but I think the depth of our physical  relationship confused matters and made it feel like we had known eachother for a lot longer. Damn, he was good! Oh well.

I think it’s all for the best. Of course I was sad about it initially, but I knew it was coming and that blog I had posted about heads/tails, heart or mind, was basically me trying to prematurely break up.

I’m fine! I don’t think I"m going to actively look for a relationship, but who says I can’t have any fun???

I have not had a computer in my home for the last week. As a result, I’m talking on the phone more and doing more around the house. It is semi-liberating. Unfortunately, I can’t chat on IM or compulsively check email. Still, I was able to clean up and I think I’m going to see how long I can go without internet. I might not last the next week though–I really like to shop/browse online.

*ps* I’m using Wendy’s computer today. we’re having a day of fun–pool, sun, friends, shopping!

I was going to write a blog about how I ended up in the ER on Monday and how sick I’ve been these days and how I’m sometimes scared that I have some strange and rare underlying illness that is causing me to get sick (and devastatingly so) so frequently throughout the year. But….

I instead want to write about what makes me happy and things I like right now. Call me a simpleton, but I’m currently going through a phase where I like the following:

1. early grey tea with lots of splenda and cream
2. laying in the sun and doing nothing
3. working out, especially running (sniff!)
4. salmon, tuna, crab and seafood in general
5. candles
6. crazy people AND quiet people, as long as they have genuine personality
7. reading the paper while firmly planted on the toilet
8. watching Alias on DVD with Paul
9. dancing, especially at a nightclub with good music
10. gay men (WOW! I put this last! It was NOT the first thing I thought of!)

There was a time when my list would have looked like this:

1. alcohol
2. getting shit faced
3. rum and diet coke
4. drinking in the sun
5. getting hammered
6. pounding drinks

ha!

Now my list makes me look more and more like the Taurus that I was born to be! Working out? I used to want to kill people who were excited by the thought of going to the gym. Now I’m one of them! And I don’t care! In fact, I’m happy about it.

Seriously, I’m trying to keep positive because I’m afraid of the shit happening in Lebanon (and so sad for the people on both sides of the battle), the shit happening in Iraq, and the shit that Bush and anti-choice lobbyists are pushing in Congress "Prohibition on Fetus Farming???"  (or vetoing!)

Positive thoughts! More caffeine! Back to work!

I’ve been sick for the last week or so. My cough is getting worse at night and I think I’m losing energy. Less body ache and more tired feelings are taking over. I need to sleep more and I just get restless, I can’t lay still. I can’t go to sleep early @ night, even when I don’t party, but I just can’t lay down early enough. I keep waking up at 6 or 7 when I should be sleeping in. How do I go to sleep @ night? Even Nyquil isn’t working. Sheesh.

I might have some needless stress right now with this "decision" I have to make (which I haven’t made in spite of an ultimatum) so perhaps I’ll get back to better sleeping once I deal with this stressful situation.

Any remedies on sleeping?

I have to make a decision by Saturday. should I flip a coin?

options are as follows:

1) follow the mind, the rational decision. I know what will eventually happen and I need to nip this problem in the bud.

2) follow the emotions, let the heart decide. Give the person a second chance and try to be more understanding.

3) allow communication with the person in question and don’t decide until more time passes? But would I simply be postponing the inevitable decision?

What should I do?

I’m sick. I’m at work. I told myself I would come in, pick up some work and some numbers to call, and go home. It’s almost 3pm and my flesh feels like it’s going to fall off the bone. I need sleep.

Yesterday I slept all day. While I was at home, the famed and mysterious Chris stopped by with matzoball soup and orange juice (as well as TLC.) It was my first matzo soup, it was good!

I gotta concentrate on work. What is the point of this blog? NOTHING. I need to sleep.

Oh, and I’m heavily medicated on disgusting-ass day-time meds. Half of my work doesn’t make any sense and I’m already getting weird email responses from people who don’t understand what I typed to them earlier this morning. ahahahah

I’m going to pass out in front of my computer. I need someone to walk over to my desk and pinch me awake. oh and I wish I could remember my dreams because they are so weird recently. Good night folks! zzzzzzzzzz

I woke up this morning, feeling a little tickle in my throat threatening to become a full-blown cold. Still, I went to the gym and worked out for an hour. Then I focused really hard on work and got A LOT accomplished. The best part of the day was when I randomly decided to pick up and peruse the Willow Street Yoga brochure that had been sitting under my desk for the last couple of weeks. Turns out that the first day of the summer session was today, Monday, July 10th. I signed up and hit the Yoga studio right after work for Yoga 1. I was there for 2 hours and had the best time. Stretching, meditation, breathing and clearing my mind of all the noise I had put in it was the best thing for me. I decompressed and felt good, and all we did was some basics and go very slowly through a couple of moves. I am so glad that I joined this yoga studio (which happens to be right around the corner from my work!)

When I walk to work, I blast my headphones. When I sit on the bus, I chat randomly with family and friends or read the paper. When I’m at home, I listen to music or have CNN on the tube as background noise. But while I sat in the yoga studio with a bunch of random people, I saw and heard nothing. It was GREAT!

I’ve done yoga on tapes/DVDs and enjoyed them, but this was FANTASTIC!

Can’t wait for next week.

Tomorrow will be a little different for post-work fun: KICKBALL! I hope I KICK some ass.

Until then, I’m going to bed early and hitting they gym tomorrow morning.

I’m so lame! Life is so exciting and I’m simply going to the gym…

Okay. I know that last blog was very melodramatic. I’m fessing up. Although this weekend wasn’t as fun as I was expecting, my real anxiety or sadness or drama or whatever stems from being emotionally involved with someone who is ostensibly ignoring me! I hate the feeling that I like someone way more than they like me. I just hate it. And when a person draws me in, and I’m totally into them, then it really hurts to feel like they just couldn’t care less about you.

Am I going berserk over not hearing from Chris the entire weekend? It’s strange behaviour to say the least that we chat all day long, text and IM or whatever and then absolute silence. And I know when I called both days that he completely ignored my calls. And I know that he had memorized my cell phone number at this point and has a land line, so if someone stole his cell phone, he could have easily called me over the landline.

And what’s really eating away at me, isn’t that he hasn’t called me back and that he might not like me, but that something could have happened to him over the weekend. He was in the ER with some accidental drug mishap last weekend.

I’m obsessing for no good reason. I just hate how much I realize I must like him to be fretting so much! I haven’t liked a guy like this since Bryan of last fall. Bryan was such an emotional mind-fuck. Perhaps I should stay away from Chris and get someone really boring, reliable and stable. OR stop looking poor nub in all the wrong places, looking poor nub. I mean, both boys were from match.com