Tails of a 17th Street Geisha

I need some cheering up! Life is not fun for me right now:

***My DDR game pad is broken.

***I haven’t gone for a run in a week.

***It’s pissing down rain right now and will continue to rain through the High Heeled Races tomorrow…

***I stayed in bed and slept until noon (well, I did wake up at 6:30am to see my boyfriend off and woke up again at 9:30/10am to call into work and say I wasn’t coming in… too many comp days and fighting off a cold/allergies, not sure which one!)

****I just got off the phone with my boyfriend after a tense conversation and although we had an EXCELLENT day of fun together on Sunday, we’ve had a tumultuous past couple of days.

***I’m not sure if I have allergies or am fighting off a cold, either one, my body aches and feels as though I was working out and/or lifting weights the day before… AND I have a constant lump in my throat and have to clear my throat every 5 seconds.

***On a positive note, I’ve been running into old friends lately. Today I saw Heather @ Cosi and yesterday, ran into Gianni in the streets of DC. The good news is that I haven’t seen either of them in a long time and they both seem to think that I’ve lost a lot of weight. David and Wendy, who I haven’t seen in months, also agree.

Of course, there’s bad news: the bad news is that although I might have lost weight since I last saw them, I feel horribly about my diet currently. I thought I knew what I was doing, but according to MyFoodDiary.com, my interpretation of South Beach is not the best for saturated fats and sodium consumption. I wasn’t measuring things as closely as I should, the cheeses, meats, the fats, mayo and butter… so I don’t understand how my friends think I’m losing weight.  Myfooddiary.com is helping to get me back on track, diet-wise, but sometimes I feel as though it’s making things worse… Now I feel that with myfooddiary.com there’s always something watching, waiting for me to fuck up, eager to point out my weak will power and discipline. That’s not encouraging, is it?

My exercise is sporadic, some weeks I’m doing great and others I’m barely there, calling my 15 minute walk to work my "exercise for the day." I’m supposed to be running a 5K in January, but I don’t know if I’ll ever make it to running 2 miles without stopping. Sometimes I have zero energy and zero will power and I can’t train for a 5k unless I have energy and discipline to train for 5 weeks straight. Am I going through a total slump? I’m I being too critical? I *am* losing weight and I’m doing much better than ever before, but I could be doing better and losing weight faster. Am I obsessing? Perhaps I’m in my slump because of my allergies/cold. My travel schedule is over, although I work most of next weekend, I’m doing with traveling out of state! Perhaps I’ll get back on track quickly. What should I do?

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