Why am I so bored?
I know what I enjoy doing in life, but I never actively pursue it. Why am I so unmotivated? I really enjoy spending time with my friends and LOVE to go out at night and get crazy with the best of them, but I know that I have to think about myself and focus on doing things that move me forward in life, right? Instead of getting all into my turntables (I could have gotten soundproofing, that’s no excuse), I spend all my hours in Dupont going from one friend’s house to another and then to a club.
When I should be polishing up my Spanish, exploring grad school options, or doing other productive things with my time, I end up going for coffee with this boy, drinks with these girls, or dancing with Gianni! Aargh. I love doing all these things, but I really ought to balance it out with life-improving things. I really want to focuse on being the best Deb I can be, but how can i resist the temptation of juggling at the circle with Filip, shooting the sh*t with Chris (Spinach), casting spells with David, watching Buffy with Domingo? I think of all the friends who I haven’t partied with in a while, Brad and Elisa, Steve and Tos, Howard and Michael Ray, the list goes on… and I get sad because my friends are so much fun and I have to figure out how to do all of it. Perhaps if I spent less time on this thing and myspace! alrightee… meeting up with Nisha for dinner!
August 26th, 2005 at 8:25 pm
Comadre, it’s not unmotivation; it’s having to face that scary question of: What am I going to do with my life???
Just realize that you’ll have so much more fun stuff to share with the world if you just take a couple of hours a week to work on stuff for yourself; Though I KNOW that the fun with friends is always a constant temptation, your friends love you and want to see you succeed; make the time for YOU…
August 29th, 2005 at 8:52 pm
Debbie:
I wouldn’t sweat the amount of time you spend with your friends TOO much. I find that life takes care of these things anyway; when circumstances dictate that we NEED to accomplish something, we’ll accomplish it. No matter what, 90% of us are going to have a midlife crisis in a decade or two anyway. When that time comes, half of us will rue the fact that we spent too much time working and not enough time with friends. The other half of us will suddenly realize that we have socialized too much, and finally go for that MBA or whatever.
Just save up enough money for a nice car, and you’ll get over it quickly enough when the time comes.
August 30th, 2005 at 9:55 am
Sis,
Actually, I dont know about you but I am just responding to your story. No one can resist temptation. As you have said you enjoy spending time with friends. Haha, I was there. And I cant imagine life with friends who couldnt help me out of distractions.
Do you believe in God? Are you a God fearing person? I wish and I hope that one day you will realized that life must be live in accordance with the will of God. As long as you love what you are doing you can never see the real you.
One day, we will leave this world and we cant scape from reality. My concern is your tommorow. Give some time your self, stop for a while and think much how to value your self. launch a question that could trigger your heart and mind. “What’s my purpose in life???”
I dont know what you believe but I recommend God to be your God and doing good as your pleasure.
Stop doing what is bad. I will be your friend or a brother that will always remind of everything that you’re supposed to do. You are free to choose what you are supposed to do. Its all up to you. But I will be a friend that will remind you of good things to do. No matter what happen, regardless of the consequenses.
As of now, just be your self but little by little, try to realize that you are from God and for God.
Thanks and God bless.
gabs