Anger
Have you ever been through a really angry phase in your life? Are you going through one currently?
I remember when I had this really bad job when I was working in Los Angeles last year and boy, I was going through such hell. My boss was a TOTAL AND COMPLETE ASSHOLE and she completely took advantage of me and everyone else in the office. I worked 70 hours a week, was made to feel as though it wasn’t enough work that I was accomplishing, and when you do the math on my salary (no overtime) with the hours I put in, was making less than a McDonald’s worker. I wasn’t working a minimum wage job–I was working at a non-profit based out of BEVERLY HILLS and my commitment to the cause would have been questioned if I didn’t work late enough, hard enough…
It was such a nightmare and the only reason I knew that I was going through this angry phase was that in retrospect, I would slap and beat up random people in the streets when I was drunk. I remember crossing the street and just slapping the face of this innocent guy who was walking passed me in the opposite direction. I remember throwing my hand bag in the direction of these guys sitting at the couch in the Abbey bar in West Hollywood, throwin it so fast, like it was a baseball…
It’s weird that my drunken behavior sheds light into my very essence the core attitudes and emotional phases that I go through. That my real emotions are so hidden from even myself that it takes a date with Sam Adams to bring it out.
Oh, counseling… I just can’t wait to see a shrink.
March 30th, 2005 at 1:08 pm
Wow! I couldn’t have said this better. I have had similar experiences. On the surface I was as happy as can be and everyone just thought my life was rosey.
But I obviously had some issues also, because it seemed like every time I got really drunk I did something totally out of character.
I finally ended up in detox one night after getting into a fight with some unknown middle-aged man for reasons that escaped me seconds after we threw fists.
Let’s just say I don’t drink too much hard liquor any more.
Question for ya:
Have you ever wondered if there was another way, besidess professional counseling, to get things off your chest. Like a friend who acted like a shrink? I just think that the healing part is just letting everything out and doesn’t neccessarily have to be directed at a professional.
March 30th, 2005 at 5:55 pm
Bellicose Debbie: Wait,wait a second here.Im posting this on the wrong entry, but im afraid it will get lost in the confusion
First).I posted my comment on your “men vs. women” Rant, but i failed to proofread or spell check.After seeing that, I corrected the errors and Re-posted a second one. I then sent you a message saying to erase the mistake-ridden comment and leave the corrected one.
But what did you do?You erased the good one and left the bad one.
MISTAKE?
??
Second.)You claim:”although I hate his pictures degrading women on his profile”
Just the women?
Did you mind that I “degrade” men in my pics also? Myself? How ’bout
Black people? Gays?
You will prolly lecture me next on what I find “Funny” other people find “Offensive” or”degrading”
Maybe im an asshole but
I find humor in degrading, offensive raciest, sexist, non PC material.
Example:What do you get when you cross a Mexican with a chinaman?
A car thief who cant drive!
Now if you where a wetback or a Chinese you could be really offended by that, or one could find it slightly funny.
Im not a racist but I can enjoy racist jokes and pics.Some humor is off limits?
Im not a prejudiced person who is intolerant of any opinions differing from my own or have a belief in superiority based on race gender or religion.
I like dark humor.
sorry.
U r still the flea bomb
________________________
Da chauvinist bigot
-Geoffrey-
(P.S. if U find any disturbing yet somehow humorous pics in your travels,I’ll take’em)
March 31st, 2005 at 1:49 am
Debbie…your blog is actually being read by people. Congratulations.
BTW, how do things stand with your West Virginia guy? Readers demand to know!
April 16th, 2005 at 5:44 am
i was jz looking around the blogs n i came acrozs urs.. n got interestd in ur title ‘anger’..
Give him no breath, but now
Make boot of his distraction: never anger
Made good guard for itself.
- William Shakespeare, Antony and Cleopatra (Maecenas at IV,
Anger’s my meat. I sup upon myself,
And so shall starve with feeding.
- William Shakespeare, Coriolanus (Volumnia at IV, ii)
Keep cool; anger is not an argument.
- Daniel Webster